“Pwede bang ako na lang ulit? @.@”

I received that message around four in the morning, while I’m still asleep at my officemate’s apartment. It came from her. Then suddenly I remember what we’ve talked about last night, during our drinking session.

Here’s the thing. I went out last night with my officemates to have fun. To at least forget about the shitty things that goes out of my hands lately. I’m in pain, I feel sad, confused, I needed an outlet. As the liquors’ spirit starts to reach my sanity, I decided I wanted to talk to Kurt. So, I grabbed my phone, scanned my contacts, and dialled his Mom’s number. Unfortunately, Kurt is already asleep as he had slight fever a day before. I ended up talking to his Mom. Usual hi’s and hello’s. I asked if Kurt was okay, she said yes. It’s all about Kurt, Kurt, and Kurt. It was very civil and formal. I instantly felt the tension so I said my goodbye, she said hers too.

Then she texted me, asking if I’m okay because according to her I sounded not so good. Surprised, that she still knows me that much, I replied. That reply led to an unexpected conversation. I told her what’s going on with me. In fact, I think I told her everything. She’s the last person in my mind that I can confide what I truly feel because I know she might find it uncomfortable, yet she stood by me the whole night.

Around eleven in the evening, I asked her to take a rest and sleep, thinking that I might taking so much of her time. After demanding me to say that I’m fully okay, she agreed. There, the exchange of messages stopped. The night went by pretty well.

And then… I received the message above. At that time, and until now, I still don’t know what to say to her. Maybe it’s a lot better if I will just not make a reply. I don’t have any idea if she’s waitng for it or not but as I am typing this entry, I received again a text message from her. It says, “Hello Daddy daw sabi ni Kurt, hehe.”

It made me smile, it made my day. Kurt definitely can change my mood in an instant.