So stupid of me to hurt her, to make her feel that way. I swear I didn’t mean to. But it’s too late now, she doesn’t want to talk to me anymore. I just lose someone so special. Someone so dear to me until now. F*ck that!

How did it happen? I don’t know either. All I’m aware of is that she’s keeping this invisible wall between us. It’s like she doesn’t want me to invest my emotions on her, and vice versa. She keeps on saying that it’s “impossible”, that we can’t do it. And I keep on asking “why?”. Neither me, nor her, can answer our own questions. She never let me know what she feels and that made me left hanging in a middle of nowhere. If only she gave me a chance to prove that it’s not impossible, that we can do it. Maybe, just maybe, things will go the way be both wanted it to be.

It’s a whole different story now. I can’t change the fact that she’s already decided to stay away from me. I will respect it and give her what she wants. But deep inside me, I’m still holding on to what I’ve told her. “It’s not actually no, it’s just not now”.