Now I know a site that accepts credit card from the Philippines in purchasing domain names. Many thanks to Kristine aka Yangleydi for giving me the link. Why you didn’t give it to me beforehand? Hehe just kidding.

As of this moment, I still can’t decide what domain to purchase. Will I stick to Kirksydney? Or go with Studio Zero instead, since it is the name of my blog. I don’t know yet. Maybe tomorrow I’ll finally come up with a decision. Hope so.

I: Baby, love mo ko?
N: Yeps. Madaming madaming love.
I: Gaano karami?
N: Kasing dami ng sand sa beach.
I: Ayiii! Ang dami nun. Kahit saan ako tumingin, left or right, may sand o.
N: Konte pa nga yan eh. Mas madami pang sand sa beach mismo, hehe.

You have no idea how much love I feel for you. How much I wanna be with you right at this very moment. How much it frustrates me that I can’t do anything for me to hug you so tight, to hold your hand & tell you that everything will be all right, or to simply feel you. You have no idea how much it tears me apart everytime I long for you.

But I know, everything will go according to fate’s plan. Or maybe, because they know that once I have you beside me, I will never want to be an inch away from you ever again. I can’t afford another minute or even second away from you if I already have you right next to me. I love you so much that I will die at the instant that someone will take you away from me. Just the thought of it drives me insane.

From the moment that I have you, everybody automatically becomes second best.

But now that you’re gone, I feel empty.. incomplete.. misled.. worthless..

Weird. Though my called last night and gave me “warning” that I should go to Leyte this Monday for my Grandmom’s birthday, I still don’t want to go. The weather is bad, it’s so hot. I still got these sunburns from my Malapascua Island trip, and everytime I’d go under the sun, it hurts a lot. A couple of friends said they think it’s a 1st degree burn already and I should see a doctor. Unsurprisingly, I refused. I hate hospital stuffs. Besides, petroleum jelly works fine on me now, haha.

Weirder. I swear I want to customize this freaking blog to my own liking and add some more cool widgets, but I can’t find the energy to do it. My mind’s too much occupied with so many thoughts, what if’s, questions, hopes, sentiments, and all. Guess I’ll just stick to this default theme for the mean time. I can’t function well. I felt like I’m a lost child, waiting for somebody to help me find the light.

Weirdest. Sigh. I don’t really know why it has to end this way. We both know what’s up. But, all of a sudden, everything changed. I miss her kaartehan. I miss talking to her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I fucking miss her!